im-in-love(:

and even when you look away, i know you think of me..

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 @ 7:43 PM

performance

dance was awesome!
love love (:
everyone got so high and crazy!
i got hit by the bball on the face and i came out at the wrong timing though. haha
encore encore!~

photos will be uploaded asap (:

actions speak louder than words, dude. -.-

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 @ 12:00 AM

just another day

played CS in school comp lab with classmates for the past few days. and im loving it. addicted to that game already. x) but most of the time my character died even before it started moving or while choosing for gun. -.- pros.

i need care and concern. not sympathy..

Sunday, October 28, 2007 @ 11:08 PM

reminisce

reminiscing (:

packed my drawer and found some interesting things.
letters, notes, cards, photos, paper hearts, wrist bands, etc.
all the lil things kept inside since young. tsk.
i threw away most of them.
didnt know these took up so much space.

OH MY KINDERGARTEN PHOTOS!! x)
how adorableeeeee~
anyone from Bethesda Kindergarten too???

spot me!

chubby.

so fair.

love to wear this.

couple dance.

i tried to think of the last time i felt safe.
and i saw your face..

Saturday, October 27, 2007 @ 11:42 PM

hateme

work.
mingle and serve.
for the first 1hr we girls were served instead.
those perverts just cant resist flirting.
they served us food and drinks.
right..
i refused to eat though.
you know, play safe.

as usual, men like to keep pestering you to drink with them.
but whatever. i can deal with that.
the corny yet perfect excuse to use: cant drink during working hours.

a random man said i look like MAKIO!!
HAHA
its a compliment but,
shen jing bing. -.- i dont.
funny.

working in this line normally receive a lot of compliments. but to me, its all bullshit. they just want to hook you up. some said i should join miss singapore or new face or whatever they can think of. -.-'' that's too far-fetched.
bonkers. they arent genuine.
and besides, im not that pretty.

an asshole attempted to take advantage of me but he didnt make it. a random guy rebuked him. hah. thanks (:

heard many of others past experiences.
learned alot and i enjoyed it. (:

my uncle told me something abt working in the business line. blah blah.

then there's a constructor i met during work today, he told me his part of story and so on. his daughters were from a convent school too. and some of the things he said made me feel proud to be a convent girl. one of it was: 'my daughters were from convent sch and they came out with good english'. lol
although since pri 1 my grades for eng were not commendable, i still think my eng... can make it. haha and i thank mschai for that. haha my standard can be compared to a pri sch kid before mschai took over in sec 3. =x
i didnt have confidence in myself but she kept repeating this : you can! you can!
and since she said i can, means i can. coz she knows where i stand and i trust her. (:
she would be the first person i want to meet whenever i return to kc.

back to the constructor.
he also said interior design has no future.
and, i was thinking, really??
blah blah.
he gave me his name card and so on.

back home,
my mom's besties gathered at my place, they were chatting.
they seem to have endless things to talk about.
everytime i see them they will just keep talking and talking and talking.
until i have to drag my mom away sometimes.
haha women.
and so, auntie told me about her situation at home and asked me what we kids really want or whatsoever la. her son is... really.. annoying. willful disobedient.
haha i said: let him be. he'll come to his senses when he reach my age.
then she told me abt her friend's true stories.
one of it was a girl who went to chalet with her friends. most of them were her besties. they were in a room playing games and all. then slowly ppl leaving the room, leaving her and a guy whom she only met twice. that guy literally raped her. she screamed but no one went to rescue her. the reason behind it, they planned it. her BEST friends planned it.
terrible.. heartbreaking..
conclusion: only your kin wont betray you.

dont hate the player, hate the game.

Thursday, October 25, 2007 @ 12:46 AM

hypocrites

dance.
junwei is a GREAT DANCER. (:
can fight with andreas. lol

no mood to continue.
sayonara.

-.- you're so scary..
you're covered with goat skin.
i hate you, hypocrite.
cant believe im still so gullible.
please leave me alone.
coz im harmless!!!
!#$#%$@^#&%^$*

Tuesday, October 23, 2007 @ 11:38 PM

move to the groove

dance practice till around 10pm (:
good exercise. everyone join me!!

changed partner. junwei to andreas.
junwei~~~~~ =(
*ping ping piang piang
lol

dancing with a good dancer like andreas stresses me. he uses a lot of strength when he dances. i feel like im gonna fly away anytime when dancing with him. Lol (a bit exaggerating) but anyway i really need to practise on controlling my strength and balancing.
jia you!! (:

just a lil bit more to finish my assignment. just a lil bit more!!

i must get over you!!!

Monday, October 22, 2007 @ 10:00 AM

dance

in school.
done with my assignment.
bored.
watching happy tree friends.

dance till 11pm today. (:
dope.

Sunday, October 21, 2007 @ 5:14 PM

farewell

jia jia is leaving today (:

frankly speaking, i dislike the way she looks at me. it gives me the creeps. her expression is inexplicable..
sometimes she scrutinizes me. like.. a pervert who's gonna rape you anytime. lol im not exaggerating. its true. she likes me a lot. my god. fortunately she's leaving today.

pictures taken at mos.

cousin ee shuen

jia jia, cousin, me

an awkward moment

Saturday, October 20, 2007 @ 10:50 PM

once in a blue moon

had night swimming with my eldest sis.
we came home searching for food like hungry ghost. we're too dependent on our parents. tsk. we ended up eating bread and tidbits for dinner.
second sis came home soon after.
the three of us sat together and chit chat.
i cant remb the last time we did this. years ago, maybe.
well, we were pouring our unhappiness about those intruder.
they made us swear a lot more than usual. haha

firstly and most importantly is apparently, the smell.
that man's foul odour is enough for a girl's room. now, he smokes in the room. my eldest sis was fuming. she told my mum, after they leave we can throw away the bed sheets. LOl.
he smokes in the toilet too. whole family HATES it. but my mum doesnt wanna say anything. i definitely cant live with a smoker.

my dad is the only man in the family. its uncomfortable seeing another man walking around in the hse. very disturbing.

2) they take forever to bathe. i thought my cousin was the only one who takes 1hr to bathe. oh my.. they're wasting water! i think they should pay for our bills. -.-

3) once, my sis and i were awaken by jia jia's hp. it was ringing loudly beside her and she still can sleep like snorlax. -.- we stared at her, waiting for her to response but she didnt! madness! whats the point of the alarm then.

4) we let them stay at our hse yet my parents have to do them a service. dad washed their clothes and bought breakfast for them. mom did the dishes. my parents are not your servants, idiots. -.- the least they can do is to offer help or, do it themselves. wtf they're grown ups ya know. not like they are disabled.
and, my parents have to stay up late just to keep them company coz that man has a habit of drinking at night. they are inconsiderate. they dont know how to keep their volume down when im sleeping. *rolls eyes

there are more, lazy to carry on.
the whole conversation was hilarious yet infuriating.

everyone is ticked off.
*hints i need a broom.

i'll try to do it right this time around.

@ 1:56 AM

meichin's hse

dinner / supper at meichin's place.
DOG! RABBITS! yay~ how adorable (:

we had steamboat!
wasnt supposed to eat though.
but i tend to stuff myself with food when there're tons of issues weighing on my mind. food is my distraction.

junwei was entertaining, as always. (:

the end.
*walks away.

Friday, October 19, 2007 @ 6:35 PM

meichin's b'day

my parents brought our fellow visitors to cruise; my second home. thank god. finally, i got back my own space and most importantly, PEACE.
im supposed to go actually. but i rather go with someone else. =x

i wasted my time in class today. i took 3hrs to choose 2 interior and exterior drawings. haha the lecturer didnt say anything. so, who cares. =p

how coincidental.
i met the group on my way home.
and i had a ride back in the end (:
kw, i think i should get you a towel on your birthday. haha
not funny. =x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEICHIN (:

ps: nic, im really affected by it. *screams.

Thursday, October 18, 2007 @ 8:01 PM

ryan cabrera - photo

i'm looking at your picture.
cause it's all I got.
maybe one day,
you and me will have
one more shot.

'nor zong yi le'

@ 1:11 AM

china.

rushed home after class.

meet people from china.. blah blah.

oh and, this MAN WAS SMOKING IN MY HOUSE!!! WTF. THE MOMENT I STEP IN MY HOUSE I STARTED SWEARING. its like, hello??!! its not YOUR HOUSE. nobody smokes in here, PLEASE TAKE THE INITIATIVE TO SMOKE OUTSIDE.
if he's not my mum's friend, i would have asked him to get out.
annoying shit.
THE ROOM, THE TOILET, EVERYWHERE IS POLLUTED!!!
ARGH.
this is not a HOTEL, MR faggot. -.-

PISSED PISSED PISSED!

it ended up 3 ppl staying at my house. 2 of them staying until the end of the month. and the other, for a few days. 1 male 2 females. they think what. refugee camp ah. -.-
if that MAN DIDNT SMOKE IN MY HOUSE i wouldnt even bother abt them.

just reached home from mos.
my cousin and i brought jia jia to chinatown to eat.
walked to clarke quay then in to mos. since its ladies night, we just get in and rest, drink and listen to music.
the alcohol made me sick today.
perhaps too much alcohol this month.
have to stop.

she talks a lot.
luckily my cousin was there.
i would have bore her to death.
i juz kept smiling to whatever she says.
lol nothing to talk abt can.
i admit im not sociable.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007 @ 2:52 PM

welcome jia jia to sg

chalet ytd with tpde. (:
RIDES RIDES RIDES. AND MORE RIDES.
LOVE IT.
rides around pasir ris with the drinks the others wanted. we (kw, junwei, kevin, badd and i) took our own sweet time to go back to the chalet. haha (:
i bet the riders couldnt take my whining. but i dont care~
that's a passenger's job; make noise.
at least im entertaining.
haha thick skinned. =x

i like junwei's bike! (:

kw had his physical training with me. we've been through numerous 'obstacles'. Lol
*massages kw

as usual, kw sent me home. (:
xie xie ni.

AND NOT FORGETTING CORN AND KAT'S COMPANY, WHO MIA-ED HALF WAY. PS KW. =P

Tuesday, October 16, 2007 @ 7:11 PM

dance chalet

how amazing. i managed to complete my assignment. faster than i expected.
had dance for a while.

yay now i have time for
chalet~
(:

Monday, October 15, 2007 @ 11:17 PM

the veronicas - when it all falls apart

left the comp lab at around 7 plus. had so much to do..
i have no time for dance tmr..
and, chalet... =/

gotta pick myself up coz things are messed up.
i need intervention,
attention to stop temptation to scream

@ 2:56 PM

sch lab

in school comp lab now.
trying to rush my assignment in order to have time for my visitor tmr.
omg im sleepy.. -.-

Sunday, October 14, 2007 @ 11:27 PM

visitors

my mom just told me her friend is gonna occupy my eldest sis's room until the end of this month. lol i dont know whether to laugh or to get angry. like, wth?! my sis gonna sleep on mattress for the rest of the weeks in my mom's room?!
im luckier i guess. the 22yr old shanghainese gonna stay at my hse for days.
a few nights in my mom's room is fine.
BUT ARGH MY BED! MY PRIVACY! FCUK!
my sis and i are pissed.
its like 2 volcanoes erupting at the same time.
thanks for telling us 2 days before their arrival.. -.-''

and dad actually suggested to let my whole room to the two visitors. meaning my sec sis has to get out too. like wth?! bonkers.
i said: i might as well leave the house. i'd rather not go home. -.- shen jing bing.

my parents are just informing us. they got it all planned. what can we do?! ask them to get out?
SO ANNOYING~
i think i'll just stay with anyone i know in my neighborhood temporary.
*frowns

@ 2:19 AM

avril lavigne - contagious

When you're around
I don't know what to do
I do not think that I can wait
To go over and to talk to you
I do not know what I should say

And I walk out in silence
That's when i start to realize
What you bring to my life
Damn this guy can make me cry

It's so contagious
I cannot get it out of my mind
It's so outrageous
You make me feel so high

All the time

They all say that you're no good for me
But I'm too close to turn around
I'll show them they don't know anything
I think I've got you figured out

I'll give you everything
I'll treat you right
If you just give me a chance
I can prove I'm right

Saturday, October 13, 2007 @ 5:23 PM

gay club

went to becka's sis b'day party at safra after school.
oh my.. her sis is gorgeous!!! (:
she should have joined hey!gorgeous and win that 2000bucks! haha.

headed down to PLAY, gay club with my girlfriends. it was my first time there. felt kinda awkward at first.
they were holding hands, hugging, grinding and frenching. haha tons of homos doing that at the same time. Lol how interesting.

we girls are safe there. (:
we drank before we go to the dance floor.
omg i dislike their music.. -.-
no feel.
but still moved a little, reluctantly. haha
even the music in bumblebees is better! -.-

and oh my.. sharing toilet with gays. haha something new. mirrors were everywhere in the cubicles. cool. (:
some of them were dancing while urinating. funny.
and 2 guys went into one cubicle. wonder what they were doing. haha

good experience. x)

tipsy.
kept laughing non stop. couldnt walk straight.
my friends think im bonkers.
my mind was still clear, i was just high! lol

constantly thinking abt him in the cab..
back home at 3am.
woke up at around 4. =x

if i was the one in your life.

pictures taken on my birthday. (:

dance studio

39752958429732746 calories cake (:

icon

our dinner

goondu becka. and, check out my green nails! HAHA =D

bing is ignoring me -.-

ice-cream cake (:

bing (:

the cake is too hard to cut!

lol shen jing bing -.-

prezzies (:

LOL

Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 11:47 AM

icon

school as usual.

stayed over at icon yesterday.
its sort of the last night for us girlfriends to hang out together cause' their holidays gonna end soon! even though im not having my holidays, i make time for them. (:

ps: corn, apologises abt your bike =x Lol
SORRY! =(

Thursday, October 11, 2007 @ 12:19 AM

foreign exchange

received an email from an acquaintance from shanghai. she will be visiting my family and i on the 17th this month. she will be staying over at my house, in my room...
she's not asking me, she informing me...
right..
she accompanied me around shanghai when i was there so by right i should reciprocate. but, im schooling now. no time for her man. madness.
and, im not comfortable with an extra human being in my room. cant do so many things. for example i have to change in the toilet instead of my room. i cant leave my clothes lying around. cant this and that. -.- restricted.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007 @ 1:43 AM

happy birthday wan ting (:

yay happy belated 18th birthday to wan tinggggg~ (:
this yr's b'day was awesome! (:
many surprises.
felt blessed (:
(credits to kw, corn and kat esp. )
chocolate cakeS, 346135923658713648712604 calories.
Lol.

had presentation today.
such a coincidence, frank was there during my presentation.
he looked at me and my mind went blank. lol
managed to continue though. (have to! haha)

went to becka's new hse at tanjong pagar.
gorgeous pool!! had the urge to jump in the pool and SPLASH.

they had a HUGE surprise for me. (:
it was... *a surprise. haha =x
something new on my birthday!
how sweet~

bing and becka made sushi, salad and so on, for our dinner.
haha healthy. (:

after dinner we played MAHJONG. whoo~ nice.
im the only one who knows all the rules, and becka keeps complaining that im cheating her. -.-''
had fun though. haha.

i went for a toilet break and they appeared with an icecream cake!
351359813501734127304974 calories..

before opening the prezzies, they insist i burst the balloons by sitting on it. (they expect me to be afraid) but instead, i scared them. haha i bursted the balloons right in front of their faces using my nails.
all ran around like crazy monkeys. haha funny (:

we went up and down to the other levels where there are various facilities available. the gym is quite small, they have a number of jacuzzi, steam rooms, and so on. overall, i still like the swimming pool. big and clean.

next stop, panda's hse.
her parents sent us over. (her dad was excited to see me.LOl =x )
the only thing i miss going to her hse is to see her lovely doggies.
they never attempted to bite me, good doggies (:
they love me. haha

bing, becka and i were so amused by the new nintendo, the wii remote thingy. whatever its called. the games were great! half the time we were rolling on the floor laughing because the way we play is super exaggerating. one of the games was tennis. with the controller on ours hands, we jumped everywhere trying to hit the ball when we can just stay put, and use our wrist and fingers to control the controller. haha hilarious. good exercise too (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANHUI (:

Monday, October 8, 2007 @ 8:54 PM

birthday season

woke up late today. =x (in fact, almost everyday. haha)
moses talk at the auditorium.
together with other courses.

prezzie given to anna.
cakes given to the birthday girls and boy. haha
they cant give surprises -.-''

accidents do happen...
horrible...
i cant get over it...
-.-''
only those who were there will know...

went over to kw's place to meet corn, kat and ofcoz kw, that kuku.
nice vids, kw. *does eye gestures (:
no ride home this time.
*pouts =(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA!!! (:

Sunday, October 7, 2007 @ 4:15 PM

past

i still feel uneasy everytime i view your friendster.
fell in love the first time i set eyes on you.
could have known you earlier,
but i threw my chance away.
all the time.

how i wish i could turn back the time
when we were still kids.
we even played catching with other kids if you ever remembered.
we played together even though we dont know each other.
how ironic.
we met when we were young
but non of us cared to pay any attention to the other.
we were just playmates on board.
we never knew we would become friends years later.
i didnt pay much attention to my surroundings then.
if i did,
i wouldnt be here regretting.

you gave me hope
yet eventually
you chucked me aside
like an unwanted toy.
i'll never forget what you did to me.

the sight of you holding someone else's hand,
on the streets,
upsets me.
you acted like i dont exist when you're with your girl.
how disturbing.

you never cared abt me.
and so,
i shouldnt bother abt you either.
but,
the feelings i have for you
had been there
for years.
sometimes
some things
cannot be controlled.

silly me.

Saturday, October 6, 2007 @ 6:57 PM

saturday

spent the night with kw, corne and kat ytd. (:
kw and corn speak to each other with their eyes, literally. -.-'' haha.
cycled within tamp.

2 days to anna's b'day.
3 days to my b'day.
4 days to shanhui's b'day.

I'm your number one fan,
give me your autograph
Sign it right here on my heart

Friday, October 5, 2007 @ 7:00 PM

home

stayed home today, again.
missed the outing with tpde, again.
well, if they're heading to somewhere else, i might go. i dislike sentosa somehow, to a certain extent. bad memories. wouldnt go unless i dont have a choice.

love to hang out with tpde. happy with them. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANNY, THE POPPER! (:

Fear of rejection
kept my love inside
told my heart i didnt want you
but i lied..

Thursday, October 4, 2007 @ 8:46 PM

hello

Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cuz I wanna hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

Wednesday, October 3, 2007 @ 5:58 PM

ride home with kw

sch at 9..
ended at 12 plus. blah blah.

OH YAY RESULTS. FINALLY. GPA 2.93. x) not bad. *pats on my own back.
G double O D J O B goodjob! goodjob! =D

went to eat at design canteen. oh my.. miss the food there. got kinda sick of it last semester though.
watched 'le divorce' in the library while waiting for kw. that movie can be interesting but i didnt pay much attention to it, dozing off anytime. haha
kw, frank, wq, kevin, jean, joey, joce, ah foong, err who else? cant remb. they were outside the library. talked awhile.

kw sent me home. (:
love rides.
BUT the back seat of his bike.. omg.. -.-'' no cushion..
i bet my butt has blueblacks after all the bumps. Lol.
but anyway, i appreciate the ride, thanks kw! (:
more? hahah

Tuesday, October 2, 2007 @ 8:06 PM

tuesday

stayed home today.
practically spent my whole day playing online games and watching dvds at home. (:
the movie 'secret' is average, doesnt interest me much.
watched 'mr.woodcock', 'no reservations' and 'crossover'.

Monday, October 1, 2007 @ 8:41 PM

block 6

*yawn school at 9. i was late. haha late on the first day. =x i woke up at 8.30 and im able to reach sch at 9.15. how amazing.
first lesson is on digital architectural drafting. freezing in the comp lab.
easy subject?
ended at 11plus so we went to eat then watch movie at the library. i watched 'the devil wears prada'. (:

next subject was ArRen. dont know what that is.
ended at 4.
went tm alone to get some stuff.
home.

fell asleep half way through the movie, secret. luckily its a dvd. can continue.

If I die tonight, I'd go with no regrets
If it's in your arms I know that
I was blessed
And if your eyes are the last
Thing that I see
Then I know the beauty heaven
Holds for me

here are the photos on performance day.
every picture is worth a thousand words.
click on it, enjoy.